The sun is only slightly shinning, but on this day
my age has the brightest smile. I’ve watched life grow
and it has come a long way since my early days.
Back then, just a child, I use to celebrate laughter
as an innocent melody of freedom, but quickly I learned
how much sacrifice it took for me to have that freedom -
I used to believe the world was everyone’s kingdom
and was made aware – during my 11th song – that my kind
wasn’t always wanted here, in this place my journey now
calls home –
by the time I conquered puberty, just old enough to sculpt
my own individuality, I felt that I was alone.
It was a loneliness that by the time I was in my twenties
I evicted from the shelter of my heart and begin to start anew.
I wasn’t only a black man, brown skin,
I was also a gay man, a vision of sin
But in order to win, I had to create a voice
to let the world know that the definition of me
was only a choice in my creation and by relation
the song that I share in my thirties is a song that is blessed
with the rhythm of my soul and the blues of my heart -
lyrics of equality.
The clouds have taken over the fullness of the sky
as I conclude this 38th song, but even they belong,
even those clouds symbolize the influence of creation.
I am reminded, the darker days need to be celebrated also,
because without them
there are no rhythm & blues because our tears
always need a reason to dance.